I fell asleep under my car.

Yes, you heard me right, I once fell asleep under my car. How, is the question that popped into your mind. Why would someone fall asleep under a car? Can someone fit under a car? What were you doing under a car? Calm down your mind and let it not be aflame with racing thoughts. I work on cars (not professionally), and have for many years. To tell you the truth, I have done so since I could walk. My dad was a mechanic. I learned a lot watching him, helping him (getting in his way and annoying him). I dreamed of owning my a hot rod, shinny, loud and fast. I built model car after model car, dreaming of the day it would arrive on a magic car carrier.

Once I got older I found out I would have to work for money to buy one. So I did,  and I started early, working on farms at 13 years old, then getting a job at a grocery store at 16. I saved and saved and the day came to buy my new ride. My first car was a Firebird, it was cool, shinny but not as fast as I wanted. So I sold it a year and a half later and bought my Dodge. It was very fast. But it need a lot of work, a lot, and all the time. The car had been sitting for a number of years, so many things just did not work. Breaks were the big pain, rot and rust had over taken the entire break system. The transmission also seemed vexing.

I really can’t remember what enticed me to work on the transmission one night, but there I was, under the car. I had it on blocks, under all four sides, suspended so I could move around on my creeper. It must have been after midnight in the garage. It was almost like my dads Studebaker was telling me to go to bed, it shared the same garage. I had worked a way for a few hours. I was getting fatigued so I shut my eyes, just for a rest, but as soon as I closed my eyes, I drifted to sleep. I woke up about a half hour later, somewhat disoreneted and confused. “Where am I”, I ask my self, oh duhh, your under your Dodge. Time for bed I thought, so I quickly went in side, showed and crawled into my bed.

I manage to get my Dodge on the road, fast it was, much tire smoke I made. Looking back, I wish I still had the car, more tire smoke I would make. But I wonder what life would have been like if I had Type 1 Diabetes like my girls do. I’m sure my mom would have had my dad out in the garage keeping and eye on me. If she found me asleep on a creeper under my car, I’m sure sheer panic would have set in, thinking I passed out from a low. I may have never gotten that car on the road without those late night sessions.

From time to time I will hear an old Mopar (that’s what they call old Chrysler’s) and yurn for my old Dart (link is not my old car but looks just like it). That black rumbling car with a white bumble bee strip that shook windows and turned heads. I don’t have the passion anymore for old cars like I use too. I would like to have the car back, but I might be inclined to have someone else work on it. My passion lies in helping families with a newly diagnosed child with Type 1 diabetes, taking care of my 2 girls with Type 1 and being an advocate for a cure. The key word is passion, it’s not an interest and it’s not an hobby. It’s real life, real pain, and a real need. I’ve put a link where people can email if they want to talk. I want to be available if there is someone in need. If for some reason you stumbled on this blog because you have a newly diagnosed child please email me. I may not be the person you can related to, but I will find someone who will listen, someone who will help in your time of need. There are many bloggers who write about diabetes, so many resources, we will help you with what you need. I will be taking other steps to help newly diagnosed families, coming up with new ideas, but that is for another blog post when I can report what I’m doing.

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A walk on Lake Superior (Gitche Gumee)

     The wind had a cold briskness to it, felt rather odd for a summer day, but it was one of those times burned into my memory. The clouds were a bit dark, rain was coming for sure, this lake was famous for churning up storms. This did not look like a storm, but maybe a hard rain. As a child it was almost heart breaking, I wanted sun, so I could play and have fun. As I think back, this is fond memory, a moment in time, caught like a butterfly in the wind. Suspended so you can ponder on its (sight) and beauty.     It’s been many years since I walked that patch of Lake Superior, oh how I miss that place. It’s one of those places that does not disappoint. Quiet, calm and serinee its almost is too good to be true. I’m almost foolish to tell anyone, its such a good secret to keep. The fishing was so much fun, it was like they jumped out of the river into your pail. But on this day the fishing would have to wait with the pending rain.

On we walked keeping in mind how far camp was. The river split the camp ground off from the beach, so there was only one path back. My dad walked on a head, looking for stones to collect, I had my hand buired in my pockets. Looking back now I’m sure I pestered him with a million question and I’m sure he didn’t mind  too much. I looked to my left at the hill with the trees lining the top, I wanted to explore them. They looked so inviting. I knew the river was on the other side, the intrigue was unbearable for me.

I looked ahead to the west down the shore line, wondering what lay a head. I ask my dad “can we hike as far as we can see”, I’m sure he answered not today. Once again the intrigue was unbearable. So many things to do for a little boy with an “all too wild of imagination”. So many things to explore, so little time, and so little freedom to do them alone. Nonetheless, I had some freedom, I could be carefree because if I got out of sight, my name would be spoken loudly and authoritatively.

Now I come to the idea of being a carefree kid, my girls will not have as much freedom to be care free. I won’t as a parent, I can’t afford to because my girls health rely on my wife and I. If I ever get the change to take them to that patch of beach on Lake Gitche Gumee I’m sure it will be fun, but not as care free as I would like.

My wife and I will worry about infusion sites getting sand in them, cgm sensors falling off in the water, if its warm enough to swim. Carrying extra of everything since we would be hundred mile from a large city. I will try my hardest to make the trip up there, to the place I played as a child. I will go on a hunt for the old boat engine that is burred under a dune and gets uncovered if the winter winds blow in the right direction. We will explore down the shore as far as they want. It’s too bad beach erosion carried away the foundations to the Life Saving Station, I’m sure it would spark their curiosity like it did mine. We will fish from the river that Hemingway fished from, and they will have no idea who he was.

I will do my best to make it as carefree for them as I can, that’s what we do everyday as D-Parents. But that is all we can do, our best.

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