It seems that two days in my life serve as bookends, two pillars guarding a corridor, two days that would shape my future actions and form my opinions of the past. 740 days those two were apart from each other, separating my new trials, emotions I had never felt and a mission I never would have imagined. The two days my daughers were diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes (Juvenile Diabetes).
Day one hit me out of know where, I had no idea a child could get diabetes, not that young (3 years old). Day two was a knock out blow, I knew that it could happen, but could lightning strike twice? The harh answer was yes.
It was 740 days between diagnoses one and two, I’ll remember them both, the events seared into my mind. The other night I founding myself hurling toward oblivion. I was thinking about the d-versary for Audi that was coming up on Sunday and Rissa’s d-versary was coming a few days later. I was in a cranky, discombobulated, and scatter brained mood. I banged out a few angry tweets and got some heart warming replies. That helped a lot.
I got home from work at my normal time and I said hi to Heather. We chatted for a few seconds and she ask me to do a start up BG for Audi’s CGM. So I went to the girls room and did the BG checks. Seeing all three of them made me smile. It snapped me from my nietzsheonic mood rather sudden. I felt much better, I remembered they have diabetes, I don’t, I have a mission. They feel the pain of the disease, the highs, the lows and the pokes from the needles. I feel the pain of being a parent with a child with a life long disease.
So here is to all my d-parents out there, you can do it, I know you can! Just when you think your down, your love for your child will carry you through. Two d-versaries, nine days apart, I made it through the first, now I’ll have to make it through another. It will be the first d-versary for Rissa, it will be hard, so many emotions. But love is stronger than those other emotions. Take that diabetes!